
I’m desperate – my tank is empty. The notebook hasn’t been marked up in days. I turned on my iPod today and a tumbleweed rolled across the screen. For the first time in over a year I missed a “Why It Matters” Monday deadline, and I likely will miss another unless I publish this slop.
I’m not really desperate and empty, just distracted. Right now I am keeping such a tight rein on my emotions that there’s no room for stories of whacking off to Bo Derek calendars and grooving to P-Funk to slip between the cracks. When you hear the patented burp you know that no emotion will get past the air tight seal.
So here I sit, a bit buzzed for the fourth (fifth? sixth?) night in a row. I tried to follow my tried and true ritual this morning: Grab the portable “Why It Matters” kit, find a restaurant that won’t kick me out, put in the ear buds and start scribbling. I didn’t get anywhere. And so here I am clattering the keys, listening to The Beatles’ White Album, and I do mean album. I slipped it out of its protective sleeve, ran the Discwasher over side one, and dropped the needle.
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